Some thoughts and fears about Schizophrenia

I never thought about writing this post. Never. EVER.

But still here I am, writing this. Let me start with the background first. Before I started writing, reading, and watching more, I never used to think about all these stuff. But all this exposure has left me open to the idea of all these mental diseases as well. But now I know about them, and I am afraid of them too. Of course I feel sorry for the people who suffer from the disease too, but more than that there is the feeling of thankfulness that I am not the victim of the disease yet.

If someone asks me about three things I am afraid of in my life, they will be:

i) I am afraid that someone will hypnotize me to do something (Too many thriller TV serials)

ii) Multiple Personality Disorder or the thought of encountering/suffering such a situation. (No basis for this, except that Sybil influenced me so much. I don’t think I have ever talked about it, but it was one very weird book by a doctor.)

ii) And now I come to the third fear. I might suffer from Schizophrenia some time in my life. There is no rational basis for this fear, except it feels like that it is the most horrible disease.

Let me get back to what started this rant. I cam across a blogger/blogpost who is afraid that she is being stalked by some official and that her phones are tapped and the police is also playing along with that high official. She has changed her numbers to different operators and she still feels the same. She believes her net and her blog is also hacked. I can’t link her blogpost here because that will further fuel her fears, but she has written all of this in very detail, along with the proceedings as an evidence if something happens to her.

I don’t know whether any of this true or not. I have no medical authority about any of such thing. But I truly feel that she needs a doctor– a psychiatrist to analyze her. I do not know her personally and have never talked to her. But her blog makes me feel so much pity for her. She has blamed almost everyone, including me for spying on her blog.

And that brings me to the another reason of the post: A Korean Series called It’s Okay, That’s Love.

I watch a lot of series, and Korean series are especially my favorites because they make me think about many things. This series was not awesome. It has many loopholes and it left a lot of subjects untouched and badly treated. But then there was one thing which drama showed that completely touched my heart: the character’s schizophrenia.

Let me explain it properly.

(SPOILERS AHEAD)

The main male character of the story is an author of the mystery story who comes from a dysfunctional family and has suffered a lot of abuse. This has created a OCD in him, i.e., he can only sleep in a bathtub. (sounds funny, I know, but it is really, really heartbreaking in the story.) Imagine that rich guy who has got everything in this world— name, fame, fan-following etc. and all he can do is sleep in a bathtub. Doesn’t it beat the purpose of existence completely?
What is unknown is that this character suffers from Schizophrenia. He has imagined a child complete with his problems and poverty. He is so involved in the imaginary life of this child that he ends  up endangering his relationship and life many times.

In the end he did get treated and found the love etc. but that problem of Schizophrenia just left too deep an impact on me. I would not rate it an awesome series. In fact on the scale of five, it will only get a three from my side.

The cumulative effect of everything is that I am left wondering just how many people are suffering from this undiagnosed schizophrenia? And the basic question of how much is truth and how much is just the brainchild of our mind?

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